Nicole Kidman has opened up about suffering a miscarriage 25 years ago, during her marriage to Tom Cruise. During an interview with Tatler, the actress revealed that her first pregnancy at 23 was ectopic, meaning that the fertilized egg was implanted outside the uterus. Years later, shortly before the couple’s divorce in 2001, Kidman became pregnant again and suffered a miscarriage.
“I know the yearning,” Kidman said in a portion of the interview obtained by ET Canada. “That yearning. It’s a huge, aching yearning. And the loss! The loss of a miscarriage is not talked about enough – that’s massive grief to certain women.”
Kidman and Cruise later adopted their children, Isabella and Connor. She has since had two biological children with her husband Keith Urban, whom she wed in 2006.
“There’s an enormous amount of pain and an enormous amount of joy on the other side of it,” Kidman explained. “The flipside of going through so much yearning and pain to get there is the feeling of “Ahhhh!” when you have the child.”
Kidman previously spoke about her miscarriage during a November 2007 interview with Marie Claire. “From the minute Tom and I were married, I wanted to have babies,” she said. “And we lost a baby early on, so that was really very traumatic. And that ’s when it came that we would adopt Bella...My mother has an adopted sister, so it’s been part of our family and I knew it would probably play out somewhere in mine. I didn’t think it would happen so early but it did.”
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